I need to find a job but...

Have you ever had a feeling that you have to do something but you are not good enough to start?

Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now. I'm a complete mess. I'm in a situation that I have to find a job. The problem is that I still have a feeling that no matter what kind of offer I find - I still think that I'm not enough good for it. And yes, I know the best way is to extend your qualifications. To show something more. But you know that for this kind of performance you need time. And you can do nothing with that.

And I need to find a job RIGHT NOW.

That's why I'm permanently sad all the time. I still think of it. My weird self-esteem says only bad things. I have a friend who earns a lot, she likes her job, I even wanted to join her. But I freaking can't stop those thoughts saying: Lol nope bitch, you're not good enough.

Damn, those are sad thoughts. Sometimes I'm not sure if I should write anything online, cause most of the time I'm sad like... um... oh wait, right now!

Let's hope it leaves me alone soon. Because I'm just done and the only thing I want is to sort out all those 'trouble making' situations.

BRUH.

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EU/UK oh God

Has anybody ever told you "Be careful because the history repeats itself"? Well, seeing what is happening right now I think the day has come. I've never thought that Brexit is something that can happen for real. It looks like a teasing of voters and eventually they all freak out and vote to remain in the EU.

I don't even care that they're out. I don't care that other EU citizens won't be able to live and work there without permission and useless bureaucracy. I don't care that we will have tariffs while trading. I don't care. I just don't care.

The only things that considers me is the fact that this is the open door for another EU countries that don't like the union. It's of course some kind of love-hate relationship, but for God's sake, now, when we have terrorists, refugees, energy problems - we have to work together.

Look what is happening right now - Scotland wants to leave the UK, Nothern Ireland wants to leave the UK. That union is dying and it's probably unstoppable. And it's sad.

I'm just scared. Scared because as far as I know the history, the same things happened before wars. EU was created to calm down countries, to provide security, to support each other. Now? It's just like a domino. UK is out, lately the PM of Netherlands wrote on Twitter that Dutch people need the same referendum and we have a disaster. European disaster. Someone has to stop those far right wing parties because laughing at them is not even fun. They're getting stronger and stronger...

And Trump and Putin are just laughing and having a permanent party. 

Source of the photo: Telegraph

Hello world!

Hi!

Hello!

What's up?

Everything's fine? 

But wait...

Where am I? 

I don't know either. This place has been existing for like... umm... Well... I would love to know that but when I think about it it's probably... 2 years now? 

I've always wanted to start a blog in English just to make sure it can reach as many people as it possible and as we know without English it's impossible. 

My name is Lukas and I'm from Poland. Currently a student at Gdansk University. International Business is soo freaking interesting. Trust me, never choose these studies. NEVA. You're going to lose 3-5 years of your life graduating with literally nothing in your head. 

My future is bright as nights. 

Actually I have no clue what I will be sharing with you here. Probably my boring life and events that will probably make you fall asleep. I don't care. Even tho I love you readers. My sweet pies. I mean... Whatever. c:

It's currently 00:22. I have to wake up at 6:30 cause I'm going to the gym... YES, I'M GOING TO THE GYM I'M SHOCKED AND HAPPY AND SCARED AT THE SAME TIME. That is because my self-esteem is a little bit low which makes me shit me pants. But I hope that the Body Shape coach will be making us happy by forcing us to move our asses. I HOPE. And I hope I won't lose my motivation. I just want to get rid of that cupcake body. If you know what I mean. 

THE PARTAAAY IS COMING. Tomorrow at 6 pm my we're going to our friend's flat and we'll be drinking loads of alcohol which makes me worry. I know how much I can drink to know what is going on around me and that limit is very, very low. Hope I won't get pissed. Jeez.