Have you ever had a feeling that you have to do something but you are not good enough to start?
Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now. I'm a complete mess. I'm in a situation that I have to find a job. The problem is that I still have a feeling that no matter what kind of offer I find - I still think that I'm not enough good for it. And yes, I know the best way is to extend your qualifications. To show something more. But you know that for this kind of performance you need time. And you can do nothing with that.
And I need to find a job RIGHT NOW.
That's why I'm permanently sad all the time. I still think of it. My weird self-esteem says only bad things. I have a friend who earns a lot, she likes her job, I even wanted to join her. But I freaking can't stop those thoughts saying: Lol nope bitch, you're not good enough.
Damn, those are sad thoughts. Sometimes I'm not sure if I should write anything online, cause most of the time I'm sad like... um... oh wait, right now!
Let's hope it leaves me alone soon. Because I'm just done and the only thing I want is to sort out all those 'trouble making' situations.
BRUH.
Source: owbaz.com
